I feel disturbed. I feel confident in my control in terms of PMO, but I’m so frustrated with this happening in the first place. I don’t want to be able to think about these things and find these images in my head, and I’m so frustrated at how they just won’t go away. I’ve suppressed these thoughts to the point that these images aren’t so clear as they could be, but they’re still there and it’s gross.
There’s also this catchy song that’s associated that I can’t get out of my head. The images from this video are suppressed such that I can’t see anything explicit, but this song still just keeps looping over and over and I’m tired of thinking about it.
I wish that I never saw anything. Or at least that I had gotten over this when I was a little younger so that these thoughts wouldn’t have had to stay around me as I got older. I just want to get over all this already and feel comfortable freely thinking about things I like. It’s gross and disturbing.
What can I do to subdue these images? I get that some of it probably won’t be able to completely go away, but… what if there really is a way to subdue it completely? And… if nobody believes in that… is there any advice on forgetting things to make it feel slightly more like I was always clean and innocent, or on removing this stupid song from my head?
I want to forget.
Thank you for your time
I haven’t seen him around for awhile but @KevinesKay is such an amazing man that have fought through alot and his guidance support and advice is second to none.look him up reach out .have a blessed day
Might check him out then. Thank you.
@JackBlind as someone who’s suffered with this addiction for the better part of 40 years and is currently 5 years in recovery/sober I can say that the images and memory will fade. One of the things I did, and still do at times, when I get a flash back is to tell myself that’s not what I want to be know and to purposely think about something healthy for me. I went from having to do this several times a day at first to now only a few times a month. Keep coming back here and search for threads related to porn and sex addiction as there’s allot of good information.
That’s nice to hear. Thanks Pirate.