Been sober 2 weeks from alcohol. Diagnosed with depression, bipolar, and anxiety. Just got out of a relationship where the emotions were strong. Long story short, I messed up and it is my fault. Alcohol played a part but I took responsibility for my actions. My counselor suggested a book, called the Four agreements. He makes a point of making our own personal hell. Hell is where we are punished for the wrongs we have done. When we punish ourselves for what we have done wrong, we make our own hell. Humans are the only known species to punish themselves and others multiple times for a single mistake. What I got from this is, don’t constantly punish yourself for a mistake. You need to be happy with yourself first. The idea of being perfect at any moment is fleeting, but the Idea of learning from the mistake. truly wanting to change for the better is who you are. Not your mistakes. So if you fall, think of what you learned from it, take responsibility and learn for it, and know that you are not a bad person, and do not make your own hell. Good luck to all on their road to sobriety. Feel free to message me for anything, even to rant and scream. Sometimes an blank ear is all you need.
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Great job on two weeks of sobriety. The best parat of your post is knowing your not a bad person. That is something I have struggled with in the past.
Thank you. I still struggle with that myself. I just have to remind myself it’s not what you’ve done, it is what you are trying to change for the better. One day at a time, one step at a time.