Maybe i am a ugly piece of s**t in Moments Like this. I dont Know… OK enough for today 
Lonely looser this evening.
Jesus wont Love me for this sin i think
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I’ve PM’d you.
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Thanks @ICanAndWill @DanielaJ @poppyfairy
Thanks for you great Support.
You are so great, lovely people
I am so grateful for you
Even when i am in a awful mood Sometimes you are Here for me
When you struggling with Something or Need to Talk about anything feel free to write me 
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This place and people here saved me many times as well 
We are really rooting for each other
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Hey Put my Alcohol Timer Back to Zero,
The night sleep was OK. But restless anyway
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Update, today also Smoke medical Weed.
It was really medical Not to get High. 
Tomorrow i Reset the Weed Timer.
And i still in my little alcohol relapse.
But still quit Amphetamines, MDMA and No gambling!
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Back again now Here
To much war inside my head.
Yesterday did Not Went Out, Bad feelings in the darkness.
Pmo, Weed, and sippin few shots Bourbon 
But i will get Back on track!
Even in hard Days Love yourself
Now i Start writing a Song
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That’s a powerful picture! Wow! I feel that.
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Back again
Now in closed Detox, Yesterday i was on the way Back to Take H or phentanyl, then i say No search Help before i Go totally fuckd Up and waste my Life.
Hope all get better. I have to life right. Loose my Power, Throw the NA Chip away.. 
Fuckin bullshit.
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Unfortunately that was predictable. It always starts with just a small can of beer. Or “medical” weed. Its slippery slope and the only way is to avoid any kind mind altering substances.
I wish you good luck and a lot of strength. Remind yourself how good you felt when you had some sober days in the books. And dont let your addict brain to tell yourself “its not that bad, its only beer, at least i don’t take opioids” etc, it’s huge bullshit. We all know it here and I hope you understand it now as well.
I’m sure you can do it! Taki it one day at a time. We are rooting for you
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Yes was the Same Bad Road Like every relapse. But i Break it before waste my Life totally. Before i Drive trough the whole country to find Something and search Love in Bad places
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I feel so horrible
I Hope i can Change to Open Station next week.
In my Home all the food gets rotten, stinks i Hope Somebody of my Family can Look and Throw away the needle, bottles and cans and the grinder and all that garbage
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This wasnt beautiful when you hang Like this for nearly two weeks
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I was Short before drinking again, i Said No
I got my medication. Dont Drink.
4 Days alcohol Free today
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Still struggling with my sleep times but still sober.
Need a Lot of sleep the Last Days
So glad i am away from this Whisky since 5 Days
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OK to be true i am California Clean , tomorrow New Weed recepie. Too much muscle and Body pain, still better than Tilidin and Shit Like that.
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Yeah that was a great success the last time you tried that. You’re either clean or you’re not. California clean is nonsense. Don’t do it.
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Please don’t do it, Max. You know where this leads.
Please go to the Hospital / Suchtklinik and ask for help.
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this will not work.
This is like me saying I’m cartel clean, I only do heroin.
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