So here I find myself. I feel I must try something new this time and hopefully this is the catalyst I have been missing to make the changes i must. I am only just starting to realise my drinking habits are far from normal or acceptable thanks to the power of denial. I write this 1 day into sobriety (which is a place I frequent often) realising in the last 14 years I have never spent more than 10 days without drinking myself into the ground. Although I don’t drink everyday I can seldom enjoy anything in life it seems without alcohol. Any excuse, occasion, or simply if I have nothing to do I find myself drinking. My health is now suffering due to the constant poisoning I subject it too, my hangovers are now more like near death experiences consisting of sweating, nausea, palpitations, low mood, self loathing etc etc. I hope this time as I tell myself this is the last time again it actually is. It’s time to take my life back!!
Sounds like me right before i decided to quit!
Unfortunately i had to quit because my blackouts were wreaking havoc on my family and i had no control over who i would become when i would get drunk.
You got this…one day is a start to many if your willing!
Stay strong…stay sober!
@Rikk I’m hoping the accountability of being able to tell people I have a problem will help. I used the app alone and failed numerous times. I am generally a happy and likeable drunk which I think is half the problem. I hide it too well. People just see the drunk me as actually me! I’m only 31 and have spent half my life drunk. I’m not even sure what I am like completely sober if I’m honest. I know I want to find out though as I’m sure my life can be more than this. I hope you continue with your progress, good luck to us all!
I’m still finding out who the sober me is…it’s kinda like running into an old friend you haven’t seen in a while…
I’m in the almost same exact boat as you. It’s almost like I was reading my own words except that I am about 10 years older than you. Hopefully connecting on here will be the boost we both need! Day one.
I find myself on day one of sobriety often as well
Thanks for sharing, I and probably a lot of others can relate! My catalyst for change was also health issues, at 31 it’s scary to be told that your innards might shut down in max 3 years if I don’t change. Still it took me about a year to stay sober more than 10 days in a row. Which is right now, 12 days and counting. I hope you get through your next day as well and take it from there. Let’s do this!
Thanks for the encouragement, keep going, 12 days is a great start! I am looking forward to feeling better and getting healthy again!
You just described what I am experiencing right now. It’s been about 26 hours since I last drank and I’m laying in bed feeling anxious, depressed, sad, lonely, afraid, etc. I as well need this change right now or never.
How are you doing as of today @Etherealmaster? I’ll stay strong right here with you.
Hi I am Sandra. I have found myself on day 1 many many MANY times. How are things going? This post was awhile ago.