Going round in circles!

So here I find myself. I feel I must try something new this time and hopefully this is the catalyst I have been missing to make the changes i must. I am only just starting to realise my drinking habits are far from normal or acceptable thanks to the power of denial. I write this 1 day into sobriety (which is a place I frequent often) realising in the last 14 years I have never spent more than 10 days without drinking myself into the ground. Although I don’t drink everyday I can seldom enjoy anything in life it seems without alcohol. Any excuse, occasion, or simply if I have nothing to do I find myself drinking. My health is now suffering due to the constant poisoning I subject it too, my hangovers are now more like near death experiences consisting of sweating, nausea, palpitations, low mood, self loathing etc etc. I hope this time as I tell myself this is the last time again it actually is. It’s time to take my life back!!

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@Etherealmaster

Sounds like me right before i decided to quit!
Unfortunately i had to quit because my blackouts were wreaking havoc on my family and i had no control over who i would become when i would get drunk.
You got this…one day is a start to many if your willing!

Stay strong…stay sober!

@Rikk I’m hoping the accountability of being able to tell people I have a problem will help. I used the app alone and failed numerous times. I am generally a happy and likeable drunk which I think is half the problem. I hide it too well. People just see the drunk me as actually me! I’m only 31 and have spent half my life drunk. I’m not even sure what I am like completely sober if I’m honest. I know I want to find out though as I’m sure my life can be more than this. I hope you continue with your progress, good luck to us all!

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I’m still finding out who the sober me is…it’s kinda like running into an old friend you haven’t seen in a while…

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I’m in the almost same exact boat as you. It’s almost like I was reading my own words except that I am about 10 years older than you. Hopefully connecting on here will be the boost we both need! Day one.

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I find myself on day one of sobriety often as well

Thanks for sharing, I and probably a lot of others can relate! My catalyst for change was also health issues, at 31 it’s scary to be told that your innards might shut down in max 3 years if I don’t change. Still it took me about a year to stay sober more than 10 days in a row. Which is right now, 12 days and counting. I hope you get through your next day as well and take it from there. Let’s do this!

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Thanks for the encouragement, keep going, 12 days is a great start! I am looking forward to feeling better and getting healthy again!

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You just described what I am experiencing right now. It’s been about 26 hours since I last drank and I’m laying in bed feeling anxious, depressed, sad, lonely, afraid, etc. I as well need this change right now or never.

How are you doing as of today @Etherealmaster? I’ll stay strong right here with you.

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Hi I am Sandra. I have found myself on day 1 many many MANY times. How are things going? This post was awhile ago.

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