2020 is coming fast for me. Sept 23, 2019 I decided to stop drinking and doing blow. These past 3 months passed by as if it were 3 years. I was alive and in the moment each and everyone of those days and that in itself is what really feels to be alive!
I decided to rejoin the National Guard for the 3rd time. I’m going to rejoin with my old rank which is a Specialist (Spc./E-4). I decided to join because the opportunity presented itself. It just sort of happened. I’m not going to fight the Flow any more. I’m Going with the Flow from here on out and I’m going to throw myself into this 100%. I tried so hard to find my own niche these past 5 years but failed because during those 5 years my drinking and drugging was what held me back.
Lord, I beg you to allow me to continue learning how to be Humble with everyone I meet. I beg you to allow me to have the courage to continue to walk this path I have chosen for I will not squander my Life any more. Allow me to Help and Guide those who cross my Path.
I wanted to get this off my chest because I really don’t have anyone to talk with privately. I will work on that though. Thank you for reading this and I hope you a very, very Happy New Year. Join me in this new decade and let’s put the past to rest here and now. Have a good last week of 2019. Love you all ^.^