Grateful for 5 years
Thereās been so much for me to be grateful for in my sobriety.
I donāt know where to begin. Iāll probably just ramble on a bit.
I came here, (TS,) to Stop Drinking! I havenāt had a drink for 5 years! Why would I leave?
I remember when I first started my journey. I was so worried about how I would be able to fly anywhere without a drink
I thought it was going to be pretty appropriate that Iām flying home on my 5th sober birthday and drinking never crosses my mind now. Actually Iām flying home New Yearās Eve sober. But close enough. Itās my story
But I think back and laugh now. Iāve traveled many places by plane without drinking and quite enjoy myself now. And it really is so much easier. And a hell of a lot cheaper. Those airport bar prices are astronomical
I guess thatās why we just take it ODAAT.
I think having more compassion with family, friends, and strangers. Or maybe just a compassionate attitude is a new thing I love having. Like the other day, the Walgreens had the Advil locked up. I had to ask the pharmacist about that. She said thereās a bell over there. Ring it! Someone will come unlock the case for you. It took me a few minutes to find the bell. It took the store clerk a few more minutes to come unlock the Advil. And instead of reacting angrily. I asked him why? He said, āpeople steal it.ā
I said, āIām sorry. Now you have to come over here and open up the case whenever someone wants Advil?ā
I told him that sucks for you guys!
I know before I would have been all pissed off at Walgreens and probably even at this poor guy. Just doing his job. It felt good to be compassionate and I recognize it happening in me.
Itās not all about me.
Iām also a lot less judgmental now. I like that about me. The quickest way for me to loose my serenity is when Iām judging people.
And Iām finally starting to see that what I donāt like in others are things I see in myself that I donāt like. Iāve always hated that bull shit early on in recovery. Especially in Al-Anon. But Iām starting to see it now.
So, Iām flying home now to see my cat. Heās very sick. Might be cancer in his colon. We cut our family trip short. And I just canāt wait to be there for Maverick. Heās my little HP. Heās gotten me through so much the last 5 years. Anything that gives me serenity can be my higher power. Now I get to be there for him. Itās so fucking sad. Loosing a pet is so fucking hard. But being there and actually feeling it and knowing youāre in your right mind. Doing the very best you can. With a
clear head. This is rewarding enough for me on my 5th soberversary. I wish he wasnāt so sick and possibly dying. I donāt have the facts. Yet. Except, drinking isnāt an option and wonāt help anything. And in fact it would make things worse. And he still might have cancer.
I go to AA now. Once or twice a week.
After almost 3 years of sobriety I felt like I needed more. Iāve always been afraid to go to AA. There was a fear of what I didnāt know. Iām not going to say people donāt tell me what to do in AA. Some do. Most donāt. But I can honestly say. I donāt have to do anything in AA or Al-Anon I donāt want to do. I listen. I keep an open mind. And I share when I can. And I take what I like and leave the rest.
Al-Anon has been a great program for me in my recovery. They get some of their best people from AA ![]()
I got AA.
And I will always have Talking Sober.
That first 4 years and about 10 months of my sobriety I was living with my beautiful, active alcoholic, of a wife. I got to admit, I didnāt know what kind of a living hell I was going through until now. Sheās sober now!! Today. I donāt know how long itās been. And sheās not working my program. I donāt know what kind of a program she needs to be working. Or anyone else for that matter. I just know what works for me.
Active daily Gratitude practice.
Helping and welcoming other addicts on TS and at meetings.
Showing up to meetings. I donāt have to do anything I donāt want to do. Just show up.
Listening to, or reading other peopleās experiences strengths and hopes.
And donāt pick up that first drink. Iāve never ever had just one. And Iāll never be cured of this disease of alcoholism.
Edit on Jan 2.
After a rough day again yesterday. Maverick ate today! On his own!
We are not out of the woods yet. But Iām not going to have to force feed him this morning. We have an appointment with a specialty vet in LA on Friday.
A beautiful friend on TS told me New Years Eve in a pm
That she is āGrateful for where she is at.ā I donāt know her whole story. But sheās been through some shit. And that really resonated with me.
My golden nugget for 2025 will be, āIām Grateful For Where Iām Atā ![]()
Life is in session folks! We all have the same choice.
One Day. Or Day One. We get to decide.
Love you guys
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