# Guilt is in full swing

**URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/guilt-is-in-full-swing/20909
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**Created:** [October 11, 2017, 6:01pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/guilt-is-in-full-swing/20909 "2017-10-11T18:01:43Z")
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### Author: ![Breakbeat](https://talkingsober.com/letter_avatar_proxy/v4/letter/b/e79b87/32.png) [@Breakbeat](https://talkingsober.com/u/Breakbeat)
#### Post date: [October 11, 2017, 6:01pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/guilt-is-in-full-swing/20909/1 "2017-10-11T18:01:43Z")

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So day 3 and I’m starting to look back and realize that I’m still bargaining with myself on how long I need to stay sober to prove I don’t have a problem. My mind is completely negotiating right now and the guilt is like an elephant on my chest. “I can’t be sober… I have all these fun events I want to celebrate like a normal person.” Why is it that every event has to be celebrated or consoled or eased with alcohol? I’m literally on a sober website still in denial. BUT… because I’m on here I’m not drinking. Ugh… day 3 how you torture me. So instead I sit home with my guilt … unable to go to work day 3. AND I’m sneaking around from work like a child. STRUGGLE IS REAL 😥