Hell must be better than My life

I have mastrubated watching porn for last 17 days continuously.:droplet::fog::iphone::droplet::fog::iphone:
Now I don’t have energy to even walk.
My legs are trembling while walking.:confounded:
Acnes everywhere on my skin.:scream:
My family is now guessing that I am doing something wrong.:grimacing:
Today My penis was burning like hell while masturbating. It feels like a fire ant is biting it. I think I made a small wound there.:face_with_head_bandage:
So don’t you think it is a Hell.
But…
Now my 17 days of masturbation streak is over and it’s time for nofap streak.:angry:
Now I wanna rise from hell to be hellboy. :smiling_imp:Pls be my friend and support me to be that…

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Is this a troll post?
How much methamphetamine have you been using?
If this is serious, id love to be the first to say congratulations on seeking help :upside_down_face:
Cheers
X

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Hello,

@RajKumarMishra

Welcome. Sorry your first post got flagged. We just need to keep our language clean on this forum. I know it’s possible for your body to heal both physically and emotionally from the damage you’ve been doing to yourself. But you’re right; the cycle needs to stop. And that won’t be easy. You need help.

As a fellow PMO addict, I know all too well the extremes we’ve gone through to get our fix. No drug or drink is needed for me. For nothing comes anywhere close to the high I get when I MB to porn. And I can relate to acting out to the point of extreme soreness and bleeding.

And like an alcoholic, when I start, I can’t stop. Many people are addicted to pornography. The statistics are staggering.

So please, don’t give up. Stay with us. We do want to help. And thank you for sharing.

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As always thank you for sharing kevin. It makes me think and reflect upon my own personal struggles with sex and pornography. Lately, as a response to the stress of my classwork I have been frequenting porn multiple times a day. It takes away from my relationship with my wife and interferes with the work I should be doing! I have not addressed this part of my life much, but its gaining increasing traction in my recovery and walk to become a whole person. Again, thank you for your honesty

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Welcome to the board! You have came to thw right place. Your honesty and willpower will be supported here!

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And thank you for your share, Kevin. Yes, using porn multiple times per day WILL have a negative impact on someone’s school performance and relationships. I can attest to that personally in my life. What starts as a stress reliever turns into a full blown addiction and becomes a main source of stress in our lives.

And that’s true in all addictions, which you already have a lot of insight on. Your shares are amazing.

I recall you sharing about this before. And if you decide to add another counter for your porn use, you would have my full support.

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Ok you two Kevins. You’ve convinced me to share something.
I was introduced to porn at about 15 when I was a young Cadet and spent sometime on a RN ship.
Over the years it played a big part in my life and it seemed to me to be, well one of those things that you either liked or didn’t. As I grew up people I knew either watched it or didn’t.
About 10 years ago I got heavily into porn and masturbation, about the same time as I started to really drink heavily.
With the internet this was obviously an easy thing to do and I always made sure my history was clear. But I did used to worry about hard drives not wiping. Guilt is present here I suppose.
Anyway it got to the point where I found that I couldn’t masturbate without porn and this set alarm bells ringing. What damage was I doing to my relationship? So more guilt.
Long story short, and this is the reason why I haven’t really posted about this before, when I stopped drinking my need to masturbate and watch porn went.
I don’t know why? And I have wondered over and over why and I really can’t think of a reason. It was, as I said a big part of my life for so long, but I’ve not even had the urge. Again this is the reason why I haven’t talked about it because I know you struggle @KevinesKay.
Ive quite often read people’s experiences on here and thought about posting mine but haven’t had the nerve to until today.
Thanks.

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Thanks for sharing Geoff. You had a very interesting experience. I’m glad that it really worked out for you. Not everyone has the same experience. But it makes sense. All of our addictions have so much in common. Starting recovery in one addiction will have an impact on another.

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Thanks for understanding Kevin. I didn’t want it to come across in the wrong way. I didn’t even think about it at the time I gave up drinking. It wasn’t my main worry, if you see what I mean? It’s just something that happened. At the time I also lost interest in sex full stop. I put this down to PAWS and the fact that I was a bit all over the place. Too be honest I’ve not got the same thoughts about sex as I used to at all.
But that’s another story.
You doing great Kevin and you are an inspiration to a lot of us.

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Thanks @geo. And you’re doing great as well. :smile::smile:

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Lol but I am working on it

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This is hilarious but I empathize. Try meditation, visualization, breath work, etc. Picture the life, feel the feelings, of what you want. Control your mind. Don’t allow a single thought that feels bad. Do this for the rest of your life.

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Ok you sonofabitch (I’m from jersey so I mean that with true love brother, please no offense lol) here I am trying to better myself in what has been the hardest thing yet! For real though, mad respect to you and other people recovering from the compulsive insanity of lust! Here I am on day 6! Wish me luck, I’m gonna need it!!!

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Dude, that is so awesome! Congratulations!

Its hard for me too. It helps me a lot when I reach out on TS when I’m having cravings.

Plus, restricting my access to porn is a big help for me. Many times, I lack the self control to keep myself from viewing it on my phone when its available.

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Just found yall on this thread haha. But yes, glad to see you joining the effort! If it weren’t for the guys on this forum, I’d not have made it as far as I’ve gotten now. I look forward to seeing you around @kdog724, good to have you with us.

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Best of luck motherfucker(with all respect).

I wonder If it’s the secondary addiction thing - since giving up alcohol, I haven’t craved heroin because my mindset was governed by alcohol as a primary addiction.

Awesome of you to talk about it @Geo :slight_smile: I expect people will be able to relate to your experience

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I don’t know. Possibly if I ever get to see a therapist I’ll ask. As I said it’s like my whole attitude to sex has changed. Not as needy as I was.