Hi Lucas, welcome. My own interactions with porn started when I was in high school and were on VHS tapes. They came in an unmarked box in the mail, and I was definitely not of age to be ordering them. No one ever checked though, so it didn’t make a difference.
For me I don’t see it as an addiction to porn though. It’s an addiction to lust; it’s an addiction to objectifying and consuming images, people, situations; it’s an addiction to this fantasy escape world; it’s living in that world to such an extent that I don’t even know how to have honest, reciprocal, respectful human relationships. Every interaction when I was in my addiction was about feeding some fantasy, reducing some person or some conversation to a fantasy for my mind to consume. It was lust and endless, unchecked fantasy and hunger. It was also potentially deadly, and not for the reasons you think.
The porn was just one of many symptoms. The real problem was in the attitudes and mindsets underneath the symptoms.
I found my way to sobriety through Sexaholics Anonymous (www.SA.org). There’s a monthly journal published by SA that has a lot of illuminating articles (https://essay.sa.org).
Neal also made a list of groups that focus on recoveries from this condition: Resources for our recovery - #64 by NealRecoveryCA
There’s a bunch of us here recovering from this; if you search “porn”, “PMO”, and related searches you will find threads.
Welcome to Talking Sober!