Trying super hard to be sober and failing miserable each time…
It’s tough. I can’t count how many times I’ve relapsed. My relapses get further and further apart though. I will beat this though, and you will too!
As long as you get back up and keep moving forward, you haven’t failed. Look at the reasons for why you keep falling and start putting things in place to avoid those pitfalls. You’ve got this!
Try to find some back up nearby like a AA group or something simulair?