Help - Not addicted but Problem Drinker?

[emc2018]

Huge mistake, decided to drink after 2.5yrs

Checking in, Day 1 I had 907 days … made a poor decision, ended up blackout drunk. Feel like shit. I decided way before picking up the drink yesterday that I was going to, and I told myself a bunch of lies and excuses to justify it. But now, I’m sitting here in regret and I feel sick and stupid. Nothing changes, no matter how much time passes - drinking alcohol is poison and makes me feel awful and embarrassed.