31 days in im more joyful, more energy, better concentration, losing weight, and more patient with myself and others…i dont want to drink today.
Of course thoughts of drinking come up but i ask myself why and usually its HALT (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) — learned that one here. I make the decision early in the day that I am not going to drink today and then when thoughts come up they get shot down, decision has already been made, no room for negotiation or addict rationalizations. I can drink tomorrow, just not today. Rinse and repeat.
Reading your thread I see you are struggling with the word alcoholic and ive gone through that journey myself here
As far as AA goes, i was wary too, but have found some amazing positivity in the rooms. The only requirement to attend is to have a desire to stop drinking. Check out some online zooms…you can have your video and audio off and just listen. Ive just recently started going to in person meeting this week because they are more intimidating to me, but i find comfort and fellowship there. Going to a womans meeting tomorrow.
Can someone add a link to the online aa meetings??