Hi @Septicpigeon. Totally understandable. I don’t call that being “weak” at all, you were being smart by being aware of the risk to your sobriety and cancelling for now. In the future it can get easier, and maybe you won’t need to cancel.
A while back I created a topic to discuss “mental tricks” to handle thoughts and cravings. Of course there is also lots of advice in books and online, but maybe look at this to see what I and some members have tried…