36? Idk lol ive claimed 27 for too long i forgot
I started dabbling in pot cigarettes and booze at 14. And boy was it off to the races. I would hang out at a grungy bowling alley/bar/concert venue on the weekends and get wasted. One particular night i drank way too much everclear and scared the shit outta my friend who stayed up all night to make sure i didnt stop breathing. And i downplayed my drinking, my partying, and risky behaviors for 20 years. Fuck at 34 i decided nows a good time to change. I started drinking even when i didnt want to and it stopped being fun but more of a requirement.
I was hopeless and desperate and i found an online friend who gently encourage me to join him in a zoom aa meeting. Started trying in person meetings and found hope, Joyous laughter and a life without alcohol and drugs. I didnt admit i was an alcoholic for awhile. Started a thread about it
It hasnt been easy but hot damn its been worth it. I know a joy and peace i havent known before. I feel connected and present in my life. Im curious and adventurous again.
Gone are the days of the addiction cycle as long as i work my program of recovery daily.