I never thought I would get to a point in my life where there would be days that go by where I don’t think about drinking. In the beginning I wanted to scratch my face off because I wanted a drink SO BAD!!! I would call “bullshit” on any person that told me it gets easier. I kept throwing thoughts around about - how could this be forever!!! How could I live like this! Maybe I can be sober now, but forever? Just that thought alone gave me feelings of anxiety and panic.
Well here I sit on the other side of forever. I found out that it does get easier. The cravings DO go away! I use to drink captain every day and just about every morning I couldn’t remember what I did the night before. There wasn’t a single thing in my life I didn’t want to do without a drink. Amusement parks, working out, cleaning, yard work, church, work, parks, art projects, grocery shopping, even yoga - phew! Yoga drunk is NOT recommended! Neither is church. That was bad. But I would try and hide whatever I was drinking in bottles or cans everywhere I went, all day long. And I know I’m only on day 71 and I’ll assure you it wasn’t easy getting here and I still have work to do to stay sober but if it can help even just one person reading this, just know that it’s possible. Coming from a stubborn drinker that didn’t want to hear people telling me that I needed to quit drinking. It gets easier. I promise! If you want to be sober, DO IT!!!