I relapsed last night and my husband found my liquor. I got so mad that he found it. We started a brief argument before he followed me downstairs and put his hands on me and called me horrible names. He says he is done with me and wanted me to leave the house. I feel like such a failure. I feel so much guilt. My anxiety is through the roof. I feel as if I wont ever be sober.
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Oh Sarah, I’m sorry you’re in this predicament. Can you make a plan to go somewhere for help with it? This could be a good thing, in the long run. Hugs…
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I’m sorry you got it tough right now how long did you have before you picked up,I see both sides here I see your husband’s side he sees your trying to get better he has all these emotions of hope, uncertainty,happiness , fear but he’s there supporting you,then he comes across your hidden booze so all those emotions he’s got come crashing down and turn into anger I don’t condone anybody putting hands on males or females ,maybe he needs space right now maybe you both do ,space for you to figure out why you picked up and hid it from your partner space to figure the lead up to it and space to heal yourself.keep fighting that great fight it does become easier but honesty is always the best policy ,I wish you all the best stay connected 
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@sarah9 I’m so sorry to hear your situation!
I’ve been through similar situations when it came to my husband finding my alcohol, thus the arguing began and the talk of divorce. Im still struggling with guilt, anxiety, depression and paranoia. The 1.5 days I’ve been sober, its gotten better though. It will get better for you, too! Don’t give up on yourself. Be the best you that you can be! Prove to yourself how strong you are; mentally and emotionally. Hugs!!!
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I am sorry about everything. I am lost for words. It’s not easy to quit but you can do this just think about it like this sober life, happy life. Good luck with everything hope it works out for you.
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Thank you everyone for your kind words. I know with my determination, AA meetings, and this community of supporters–I can do it!
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I am doing good. Spent time with my family and am hanging with my daughter and nephew right now. Giving my husband his space for now. I feel good though.
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Impressive Bec, you hit the nail on the head. Thank you for your post. Al-Anon and Alcoholics Anonymous, a great combination for their situation.
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Giving him some space is good. At some point in the near future both of u need to own poor past behavior, (you - drinking, him - being physical) and try to move forwards without blaming the other, focusing on what u both can do now to be the best versions of urself together.
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