Welcome Chicky N 
Sorry about that tough month you had. It sounds very painful. Throwing all that booze on there adds so much shame to all that pain.
This has been a great sober community for me to meet and help and get support from people from all around the world. There is so much knowledge around here.
When I am out of strength and feel lost and boy did I feel hopeless 
I spent a lot of time on here. I find being active on here has been key to much of my sobriety. I’m even no longer afraid to go to AA meetings.
Have a good read around. Join in when you’re comfortable.
Here’s another thread of a friendly daily checkin people like to use. If you’re willing check it out. Have a good read. And again. Join if when you’re comfortable.
Best advice for right now.
Keep an open mind. Take what you like and leave the rest.
