Before I relapsed 2 1/2 years ago I had 18 months of sobriety. I had faced many difficult situations and always fought off the desire to drink. I was in a good place, had started a new job, had a good relationship and then one day while on a weekend getaway I just pored myself a drink. I drank every single day after that until 12 days ago.
Looking back now I think it was my complacency with being sober. I was on autopilot. my life was good. I had stopped going to my meetings, stopped reminding myself of how dangerous alcohol was for me. Lesson learned now.
I wish I would have kept up with my meetings, been involved with a site like this and not have let myself get comfortable with being sober. Wish I would have done what you have done and at least reached out to someone to talk about it.
Hopefully this helps in some small way. Looks like you’re making better decisions than I did. Stay strong, be proud of where you are at, but never forget how easily you can be right back to where you were.