I have been in such a depressed funk the last couple of weeks. Im struggling tremendously in life right now for the first time in soooo long. I have been numbing it with alcohol, on a daily… I go forward and then backwards. I NEEEED to get out of this funk and get past the pain I cause myself because Its all self inflicted pain. Im stressed over money, Im disappointed in my willpower and its driving me crazy because I KNOW for a fact it will ALL GO AWAY IF I STOP DRINKING!!! I feel very alone right now and just needed a little support. You all are ALWAYS my guardian angels. Any kind words are appreciated. I need a plan, I need to take action but I obviously am not succeeding on doing it on my own. All my love…
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You’re taking action by just writing your post… always remember all you need to live on this earth is water food and oxygen the rest is irrelevant… so not worth getting upset over . You are more important than the things that worry you. Keep your head held high 
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Hey, shocked and sorry to hear you’re struggling. You’re such a regular face on here with your comments and advice, well, I suppose forum complacency kicks in.
A bit like booze complacency I suppose.
I hope you can get back on track asap - the forum needs you! Seriously!
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Thank you so much @Tonyb I really appreciate it… It does help me to feel better. I do have bright things in my future I just need to be positive. Thank you kindly…
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Awe!!! thanks @Charlesfreck!!! Makes me so happy I just gotta get outta the funk and learn to breath again!!! Your amazing thank you so much!!!
Hey at least your realizing you are in a funk and not in denial. You got this! Keep ur head up and power through this and stop beating yourself up.
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You’re one of the good guys, don’t want to see the good guys falling. And like you say, the bad stuff stops once the booze stops!
Jump back on, it’s not much fun for a couple of weeks but it gets a whole lot better!
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A big positive is you’re aware you need to make changes that’s a good thing the battle is half won…
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Im sorry my friend… I know the struggle…
I agree with @Steve92 , life is going to beat you up enough, don’t beat yourself up! You are one of the most kind hearted, beautiful, and positive people on here… shine some of that love upon yourself!
BIG HUGS and all of my love!
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Awe I love you all so dearly, you give me strength, power and motivation to continue on and kick some butt! Thank you everyone for all of your kind words. I know it wont be like this forever I just need to get ahead of my game!!! You guys are all so kind and supportive! It is like some of this weight is being lifted off my chest. I know Im better than this!! Thats what i need to get through my thick head!!! so much love to EVERYONE!!!
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Thanks @Oliverjava i do!!! more than words can express!!! I will get it darn it!!!
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Everything is temporary. You have the power to take an active role in changing your situation. Things may be dark right now but tomorrow is a new day. It’s been said a million times but anything worth doing is never easy.
You can do this! Keep your head up and keep joining us in the forum! Sending positive vibes and strength your way. hugs
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Thanks so much @MissQuinn you are very correct and I know how amazing it will be in the long run if I can make it through the darkness. Which of course I know I will! Thank you for the support. It means the world!!!
@Shelbyeriss. Be strong. We’re all here to support each other. I was extremely close to relapsing just a few hours ago, but fought it off, and I know you can too.
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Shelby,
I read what you said about what you are going through and I feel like you are the younger me. I totally understand needing to numb the pain, that is exactly how it started for me at night and in bars with friends, then I was doing it at home, then after I was married and my kids were growing. I really know how you feel, pain is so hard to deal with alone but I am here now, and it seems reading that a lot of people care about you. You can get through this, you will. It’s hard but one day at a time. Hugs for you! Hang in there!!!
Lisa
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Wow! I feel like I wrote this!! I spent the whole of last year (following a January heartbreak) feeling exactly how you are feeling now and used alcohol for exactly the same reason - to keep myself numb .
I am determined to kick my butt into gear this year, I guess that is why I have come to this site.
I feel good at the moment as I try hard to stay focused, but it’s early days…
I totally feel where you are coming from, but you CAN do this. WE can do this.
Do not forgot - we are all here with you!
Stay strong! <3 <3
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Here are a few things I have done to help me through a depression phase:
Sticky notes around the house with words of affirmation and positive quotes.
Exercise and if I’m not up for it just sitting outside and getting some fresh air
Taking my kids to the park
plan menus, calendar, and get organized to feel on top of life
cook healthy meals that make me feel better about myself
Shower, do my hair, makeup and get dressed right away in the mornings so I feel ready to take on the day
You are on the right track and I’m happy for you! Getting out of a funk is not easy at all but you have pinpointed a major factor and choose to work on it, that’s great!
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You speak a lot of sense there @Gemstone123
Thank you for sharing that.
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Thank you so much @Zara for reaching out and for your support. I really feel we all have so much in common as we go through the everyday struggle. That’s why I love it here! There is never judgment. I’m on day 2 but feel stronger today then I have before and feel I’m getting through the really really hard part. Of course I am out of town with family so I can only hope my strength will continue as I return. We are all in this together and if you are ever in need iam always here for you. I love having support so accessible and here when I am in need. All my love your way
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Thanks @Gemstone123 for your positivity and for your ideas. I will take anything I can get in regards to staying strong. I have been keeping a journal of positive phrases and things that motivate me and that has been helping. I need to learn to divert my cravings when they come up instead of giving into them and really need to stay busy and productive. I think exercise needs to become a daily part of my life again I’m just in a process of relearning to find the focus and motivate myself to do productive activities as mine were so destructive before. Thank you for all of your love and support I’m here for you if you are ever in need!!
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