# I’m really struggling with the first step **URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/i-m-really-struggling-with-the-first-step/127298 **Category:** Your Story **Created:** [October 2, 2021, 2:01am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/i-m-really-struggling-with-the-first-step/127298 "2021-10-02T02:01:43Z") **Posts on this page:** 1 **Showing post:** 4
### Author: ![SinceIAwoke](https://talkingsober.com/user_avatar/talkingsober.com/sinceiawoke/32/195742_2.png) [@SinceIAwoke](https://talkingsober.com/u/SinceIAwoke) #### Post date: [October 2, 2021, 2:32am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/i-m-really-struggling-with-the-first-step/127298/4 "2021-10-02T02:32:37Z")
> [@Mosimu5](#): > > where do I start? I started where I was, in jail again. No matter the external conditions, I knew in my heart that I was really done. But it took me almost 20 years from my first attempt to quit at 27 until I got sober. But that night in jail I knew I was done. It became my mission to get to bed sober each night no matter what. Along the way, I used Antabuse and counseling and AA and intensive outpatient treatment. Only you can look within yourself and answer the question " Are you done yet.". If the answer is Yes, nothing can stop you. When my answer was No, nothing could help me. Check out this thread for ideas :: > [@Resources for our recovery](https://talkingsober.com/t/resources-for-our-recovery/52812): > > There are so many helpful resources available to us on our sober journeys. I wanted to share this list for those who are interested in non traditional resources. Please note: I created this thread with alcohol recovery in mind and it is U.S. based as well. As a straight white past middle age woman (SassyRocks), it is based on what resonated and helped me in my journey. Over time, I have added in resources for some other addictions (found at the end of this post), but it is heavy with resources … --- _[View the full topic](https://talkingsober.com/t/i-m-really-struggling-with-the-first-step/127298)._