I reset, but It's okay

Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what ‚s true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make. You can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won’t know for 20 years and you may never, ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but there is, it’s what you create. And even though the world goes on for eons and eons you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain wasting years for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes, or it seems to, but it doesn’t really. So you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along. Something to make you feel connected. Something to make you feel whole. Something to make you feel loved. And the truth is I feel so angry. And the truth is I feel so fucking sad. And the truth is, I’ve felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long. And for just as long, I’ve been pretending I’m okay just to get along, just for… I don’t know why. Maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery because they have their own. Well, fuck everybody. Amen

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I hit The reset button today but I’m not afraid. Falling down is sometimes The most important step you take to recover
Hope you have a Good Day everyone!!!

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But, at this moment in time the only thing that should be important is sobriety.
Nothing else matters.

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I slipped and had to hit the reset button recently too. I hate that I relapsed, but im grateful to have learned from it and be back on the wagon.

Im grateful to be able to be adding up those sober days one day at a time again.

Sobriety is fragile. That first drink breaks it.

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Jason you’re an inspiration regardless of the reset. Your words are really helpful. Ty

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Along this journey; the only happiness you will ever find is that which you bring along with you. There will be moments of exception and events that take you by surprise and delight you, but ultimately, our deep and lasting happiness comes from within.
It’s like Wayne Dyer said: “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change”.

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Thank you guys! You all rock :heart:

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