I have 213 days sober. I’ve got quite a bit of stress in my head right now. My partner is going away for the weekend and I keep having these thoughts about wanting to get drunk while she’s gone, just for a few hours of that old relief. But I won’t.
I’m not looking for anyone to prompt me to remember why I quit drinking, or remind me of the ramifications of relapse. I know these things, and I won’t drink. I’m just putting this out here because I know some of you will understand. I don’t really have anywhere else to admit these feelings. So I guess that’s all I’m really looking for, is someone to say “I get it”.
Thanks for listening.
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Thanks, man. I’m under no illusion that I can do it “just once” and not relapse.
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I get it… Except I got nearly that far and did relapse. I still regret it.
Your finest moments in sobriety, are the moments when you’re all alone & still choose to do the right thing 
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I totally get that. But keep moving forward.
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I get it. I had 285 days but I kept obsessing over it and the first chance I got, I gave in. I immediately regretted it and dumped out the rest. Made it to one month again. Hang in there man.
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AA is a good place to check out if the voices get out of control.
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Thanks for sharing your story.
Your not alone in thinking of sabotaging your sobriety but at the same time we all know what it took to get us to this point. I’m glad your commited to your sobriety.
213 days is no small feat. CONGRATS!
I GET IT…
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I get it… I’ve been struggling too. I’m 8 days sober and I keep thinking “just one, it’ll be okay” but it won’t. I’ll be breaking that promise to myself and I don’t want to do that. 
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goto meeting and talk with someone you trust about that
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I get it my friend!
You are not alone.
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Thats why i go to meetings when i feel alone i can lift the phone go for a coffee and meetings make it easier and thats what we all want wish you well
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Well shit man, I totally get it! Usually it’s more the benzos that I crave, just one to help me sleep, just one to take the stress away. Then that thought leads immediately to, well, if I have a xanax for the morning then one drink (yeah right) would be possible that night.
Fortunately, it’s been a while since I consciously fought with those thoughts. Every time I win that battle the more it becomes something my subconscious takes care of.
We are here, brother. If you need more support when the time comes, well, you know where to look.
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Thanks all! It helped just to get my thoughts out there and get such supportive responses!
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) and what stops me is the idea that even if I did that, I’d have to stop the next day but I would want to keep going so it would feel like this feeling of wanting it but oh so much worse for having had it. I get it. Boy, this doesn’t make me look pretty 
!!!