Past weekend with Hubby was just horrible. A battle took place almost every moment for 3 days. I was told how horrible I am, don’t do anything and I must be on drugs and he wished I would just get out of his life because I make him so miserable. By Sunday night after he returned to his work home I received several texts on how he appreciates all I do. He is a lunatic and frustrates the hell out of me.
This week I promised I would do more and yesterday at 8am drove 30 minutes away to pick up some help for outside labor. Made plans to pick up same person at 8am this morning. Haven’t been sleeping all that great and am up at 530am. Drove to pick up worker today only for them to come out to the car and inform me they were not working today and did notify my husband. Hubby said yes he had been notified and sorry I didn’t get the message. What a waste of time and gas. So again tomorrow I will drive to pick up the help again.
With that vented .. just found out hubby coming back home tomorrow a day early. Immediately I become exhausted and overwhelmed. We have a cleaning service for Thursday but now I still will do what they would have done. Not to mention I promised some heavy duty tasks done outside by the time he returns. I have started these tasks but the pressure to get stuff done knowing he will not be happy no matter what is really exhausting. I know I can only do what I can but the fact is I could do it all but what price am I paying with my mental health? There is always a slight chance he will be thrilled with the progress I have made. I just get to wait and see. Life is not boring at all for me.
Hey I am sober and lost more weight this week. I will celebrate my personal victories.
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Celebrate those personal victories and do know you are a hard working badass woman! I am sorry that this is not seen and appreciated more.
I am sorry for the horrid weekend you had and the fucked up communication that caused you to waste time and gas. This is frustrating on so many levels. I do hope that you don’t compromise your mental health. Sending love and hugs and oodles of strength as you work your way through the week. I think you are great! 
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I’m sorry your hubby doesn’t see how hard you try!
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