It’s because this is the first time in a long time I’m having to just sit with my emotions. I feel like sometimes I need a sounding board and this is a good platform for it. I want to look back on these posts in a years time and say ‘I did it’.
I was close to slipping today but I stuck with my plan. I went to the gym which I was dreading, it went pretty well. I came home and spent a few hours playing my guitar and my keyboard and singing at the top of my lungs which felt therapeutic.
My new neighbours knocked on and invited me over for some tea, I’m English and expected Yorkshire tea, they’re from Pakistan and they gave me this lovely Masala Chai tea which was a nice change of pace. I sat chatting with them and their kid for two hours. Their kid loved superhero’s and so do I so I told him all about my comic book collection and my favourite heroes, he cried when I left because he wanted me to stay.
It’s been a super wholesome day considering I could have drank myself further in to depression and continued that feeling in to work tomorrow. I need to hold on to this.
But I’m easily enthused about things that are awesome. Like the way you spent your weekend and dealt w your shit. Also having good relationships w the neighbours rocks.
I worked two hardcore shifts bossing at the job and spent my day off completely in the horizontal w my Scottie queen. eating all the chicken. Body felt smashed up today. Gonna be back at the grind the morra and looking forward to it.
Keep those sober days and new experiences coming, that’s how you build what we call sober muscles. Recovery hypertrophy like, odaat.
Ive learned it is possible to have a good time sober! The more you experience it the better it gets! Cravings are there, but filling your time with positivity like that helps! You got this
eating all the chicken. Body felt smashed up today. Gonna be back at the grind the morra and looking forward to it.
(TW gym attire. Keep rules #6 and #7 in mind) (Part 2)
