So, ptsd is fun (not). February was a super shitty month for me and I had some stuff go down back in 2016 and rn it still feels like 2016. I feel all floaty and spacey, like im watching myself in a movie but its not me. None of this feels like me. Nothing feels real. Im on edge too. Im so paranoid, i feel like someone is going to try and hurt me again. I know that im safe and I just need to ride this out but dammit its hard. I feel like that scared kid all over again. Ive cried more today than I have in the past month.
Todays been kinda shitty, but it always gets better.