81 days go, if you would have told me that today I would have a real smile and sense of pride, that I would be the woman I always knew I was, that I would be all this SOBER… I wouldn’t have believed you.
Why 81 days ago?
81 days ago I met myself. A coming to Jesus moment if you like to entertain such thoughts. Oh, it was ugly. I remember it all. Vividly.
Shattered glass.
Come on, you can make it all stop, just do it.
The thought of my 8 year old being upstairs makes the hair on my neck stand tall. However, I stand small. It’s not shame or embarrassment, but something has me cowering.
Fear.
What happens next? Can I do this? What if I fail?
We all ask those. Daily, I’m sure.
Fear has held me back my entire life, from being who I knew I always could be. If I just had the chance. The most empowering moment of my life, was getting into the ambulance, voluntarily. Surrendering completely. I needed help. The alternative was death, in one form or another.
81 days ago I realized how much power I had. The power to make this possible…
Hi. My name is Jesi. I am an addict.
TODAY I AM 80 DAYS CLEAN!
Thank you for taking the ride of a lifetime with me!
next will be 100! 
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