Today I am 211 days sober from pornography addiction.
Since I joined the forum back in 2018 I’ve relapsed like 9 times. My first attempt at sobriety with any real ability to track what I was accomplishing and be accountable took me to 211 days. It’s been rough working through it after that first relapse. Today I am breaking that record though and continuing with sobriety.
Since I started this addiction in ~2007 the longest streak I’ve ever had was only around 9 months or so. I am just tired. I’m tired of the shame and anger. Tired of the disappointment and disgust that my wife has. Tired of her distrusting me and saying that I’ll never stop and I’ll never change.
It’s not because of her words that I want to be clean though. I dont want to be like this. I want to love my wife without it being tainted. This is aside from all the rottenness of the pornography industry.
So, here’s to another day of sobriety!