I make every excuse and hide and lie but function so well it’s been more than 5 years. I’m so tired of chasing the younger me I’m 42 I feel shit and hate I can go weeks but find a way to justify my actions.
I know I have to stop and the only way is to delete numbers and get all the alcohol out the house and maybe one day I can have a better relationship with it but I know that can’t happen. I need to stop and mean it and stop for good.
I feel like I’m going to miss something but why am I going to miss all the damage it’s doing?
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Welcome to Talking Sober. You have come to the right place if you want to stop and start getting better. Our disease wants us to stay addicted, that´s why it`s so difficult for you to imagine a life without your substance of choice. But at some point in our addiction there is no going back to drinking being just fun. The costs get ever higher and so does the damage it does.
Personally, my life got infinitly better, the moment I chose to let go of alcohol. This place, the people here were essential in my recovery. I do not ever want to go back to the drinking days, even though I was jsut as scared to let go of it, as you were, when I started. Its totally worth it.
There is lots of inspiration and support in these threads on how to get sober. Looking forward to seeing you around.
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Welcome to TS!
Have a good read around, make a plan, join a program, go to rehab, read about addiction, learn to understand, keep off people places and situations with alcohol or triggers. You will never have a normal relationship with alcohol, you are a pickle now, no turning back into a cucumber.
Recovery is daily work, often unpleasant and hard, especially in the beginning. No shortcuts. One day at a time.
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Honestly my good friend, once it really clicks and you accept alcohol as a weakness, I didn’t miss it. In 5 days I’ll be 800days alcohol free. I don’t miss it one bit.
The truth is there are good days and bad days but either way, getting blackout drunk or wasting money on it makes me weak.
If I’m blackout drunk, I can’t even protect myself
I understand the circle though. It took me years to finally quit and I was really trying
It’s a very dangerous cycle
Quitting saved my life I must say
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maybe have a look at recovery programs a few out there and they will help you wish you well
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While you still think alcohol has something to offer, it will be hard to quit. Like it causes trouble, but it the only escape I have, or I embarrass myself but I can’t socialise without it, or whatever that tiny glimmer or attraction is. You have to truly believe that it has nothing to offer anymore. Some quit lit or podcasts might help you stamp out the last attachments to it. I liked Annie Grace’s This Naked Mind, you can find others here Resources for our recovery
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I love watching celebrities who quit on YouTube
Their story’s are wild
There’s a person from jackass (not Stevo even though he quit too) who’s story I listened to more then once. I just forgot his name
Brandon novac was his name