I feel like eventually I can focus on not smoking in my room or alone if I start slowing down but a part of me feels guilty for not just quitting. I get told how I shouldn’t smoke so much and how unhealthy it is (especially since I add tabacoo to my weed) and i know all that very well, but all the lectures kill my motivation.
I really dont have the motivation to go fully sober despite the desire too since I had to leave my addiction counselor and since my living situation leaves me constantly near people smoking.
Does anyone have any advice or opinions on starting by only smoking alone?
Trying to control our (drinking) addiction is very common, and seldom if ever effective. It does signal that you are very concerned about your addiction, that you want to want to change it, and to my mind that is as good a starting point as any. But be aware - people who end up on this forum and in other recovery venues have the general experience that abstinence is the only way to prevent a tumble into even worse, more degrading, situations of using.
Please take a look at the book “Alcoholics Anonymous”, aka the AA Big Book, chapter 3 in particular. It describes how attempts at moderation and control have inevitably failed for us. I think it doesn’t matter if the particular substance is booze or pot, just read it from the perspective of addiction, with specific examples provided by an alcoholic from their own experience.