Is this reality?

Does anyone have a spouse that doesn’t drink? I’ve been sober for 20 days and I guess I felt like things would suddenly be different once I quit. Instead I feel like I’m in an eternal state of punishment. Anyone have any idea how long it takes to prove that you won’t drink again? I feel like my drinking changed the woman I married. Will she see me as an alcoholic for ever? I sort of just want to go back to the way it was, its like I’m in a different relationship.