im 23 and im 2 and a half weeks off smoking weed. i used to constantly as a crutch to help my severe depression and anxiety and now that I don’t have it, I find myself wanting to smoke again whenever i get super anxious or sad. It’s already happened countless times and I haven’t relapsed, but I feel like every day I get closer to that point. Im just tired of every little thing making me spiral into a depressive or anxious episode. My life feels pointless. I can’t find a job, I’m living out of bags while i stay at a relatives house, I feel exceptionally alone. I’m tired of feeling this way.
8 Likes
I’m sorry that you’re going through it right now. I remember being that age, give yourself some grace. I’m not sure where you live but would trade school be an option for you?
Good jobs usually come with drug screening, having clean piss is worth its weight in gold. Working on coping skills with a sober mind is priceless. Are you really active in social media? If so I recommend a break. Social media is so freaking toxic, showing unrealistic expectations to young people. You’re important, you’re needed in this world.
7 Likes
Welcome to Talking Sober - you are in the right place.
Is your anxiety and depression something a professional and maybe medication can help? I’m thinking that getting high didn’t actually fix those conditions as much as mask them or numb you out to them.
Your life may seem gray and pointless now, I know mine did for quite a while after getting sober. I felt like giving up and just going back to drinking quite often. There were days that only the knowledge that I was on conditions of release before trial that would cause me to be jailed for months if I drank stopped me. But you hold on, and keep holding on. Focusing on putting a sober head on my pillow helped a lot, and structuring my days with AA meetings and counseling as well.
HOPE - Hold On, Pain Ends. It does, it gets better.
7 Likes
Welcome. Im glad you found this awesome, supportive sober community.
Im so sorry youre deeling with a lot of stressors. It sounds like your habit has been to use substances to cope with the horrible feelings. The only way you’ll find lasting sobriety is if you find tools to help you cope in healthy ways.
It sounds like youre dealing with a variety of life stressors. Tackle the problems one step at a time. Getting yourself out of this situation will only be more difficult coping with substances.
Find support, you can use this community, aa, smart recovery, celebrate recovery, dharma recovery. Lean in and find support that resonates for you.
One step at a time
4 Likes
I have a semester left of college, but i can’t afford it anymore. im active on social media but only for my interests like certain shows and for a game that i like. i try not to look too much at personal social media because i know it upsets me. thank you for your words and support. i have a new therapist i start seeing tuesday and im planning to go to a sobriety support meeting sunday.
9 Likes
That sounds like a really good plan. What were you going to college for if you don’t mind my asking?
3 Likes
Oh I love this!!! @SinceIAwoke
2 Likes
@robinavitch this is good advice my friend, and as someone with mental health issues i can relate. you are not alone man, lots of people like you and me are going through it pretty much daily.
good choice my friend, you’re making good changes in your life and you will be feeling better but it takes time and practice to live life clean.
you got this, just hang in there and keep doing positive stuff for your recovery
3 Likes
Public relations with a minor in theatre
Sobriety sounds like a solid foundation to your help you rebuild the life you try for
Sobriety has never harmed me. I’ve been harmed while sober but never because I was sober
Step 0
Put the substance down