Well today was not a good day. Found out my Dad has prostate cancer and luckily it hasn’t spread and he is going to have surgery to have it removed.
It was just very tough to not head out to grab a beer and drink away the pain and discomfort of hearing the news. Normally I would go and do just that. I felt really uncomfortable, very argumentative and snappy around people. I know it would just be worse if I tried to drink through it thou. I worked out and talked to him about it and that helped alot. I’m not going to allow myself to spin out of control again. I’m at 31 days today and feeling like this was my toughest day so far. I had a friend tell me the other day to just learn to moderate and I told her there is no such thing for me lol. I always drank to get drunk and once I was drunk I would drink even more. There’s no way for me to moderate and it’s such a lie. Dont fool yourself into believing that if you know yourself and why you really drink. Stay strong folks just had to vent a little but I’m good. Living with a little discomfort is much better than a life with the booze. The forum is really helpful and I’m so glad I found this community.
Sorry to hear about your dad @ablane890 .fingers crossed for him . I will pray too . You did a very good thing talking to him about your toughts. You did it the right way.Good for you and for him. Having a positive mind will benefit you both. There is No such thing as moderation. My experince are also thats not working. They will never understand that… thank you for sharing .stay strong keep the focus .i do love this forum too Tons of advices support and awesome peoples
Sorry to hear about your Dad. Keep your head up and continue doing the right thing. You are definitely right when u say it would just be worse if u tried to drink it away. The situation would still be there when you sobered up yet you would be back in the hell that is Active Addiction. Stay strong, congratulations on getting 31 days. Just work on getting to 32 and I wish you and your family well man. It’s gotta be tough, but your dealing with it with a clear and conscience mind. Keep doing the right thing and im here if u need to get some shiz off your chest. That’s another thing this community is great for. Another network that helps keep me clean, a day at a time.
Thanks for all the support. Really helps alot knowing you guys know what Im talking about and where I’m coming from. It makes me feel sorta sad for people when I see rhem drinking to hide from their feelings now I didnt realize how much I did it before and just wanted to escape and hoped drinking would somehow make me feel good and it did temporarily but in the end we always have that feeling of guilt not being able to handle things level headed. Feels good to face life head on and deal with the pain. I heard someone say once you only relieve pain by going towards it into the storm and coming out the other side. If you run from it it will always be there waiting for you hiding just under the surface.
Sorry to heat about your father, I wish him a speedy recovery. I don’t know you but just want to say I’m proud of you for not choosing alcohol to help the pain. That’s a bigger accomplishment than most think.