Hello Brandon here. I’m just began this journey of sobriety but it hasn’t been easy. I told myself I would quit July 31 (my 34th birthday) in the last 15 days I’ve tripped up 4 times. I was a daily beer drinker. My method if controlling my drinking was deciding to only by a 6 pack instead of a 12 pack because what ever came home was going to be drunk. I always knew I was a drinker and I owned that shit. I was the fun guy that was always down to have a relaxing time. I didn’t see a problem because i have a pretty good job and I never missed work because of drinking. I’ve never been a mean drinker or a cheater or other things that often goes with excess drinking, however I notice the older I get the worse I feel in the morning and my depression, ptsd and anxiety would be a lot worse until I could get off work and Crack a can where I’d be instantly relaxed. I’ve started going to church again and just trying to get by day to day. The hardest time I have is right after work. I work evenings getting off at 11pm and that has been my time for about 16 years. That drive home is constantly being bombarded by thoughts of wanting to stop and pick up just a beer or two. I don’t know how to deal with this. My amazing wife works Graveyard so I go home to an empty house which has always been my time to chill alone until I got drunk enough to sleep. Now it’s time that’s my enemy. I’m having trouble falling asleep so I started taking melatonin and it helps. But I sleep so much right now when I actually fall asleep like 10-12 hours. Well I’m done rambling thanks for listening. I’m sure I’ll be back to ramble again
Hey man. Welcome and thanks for sharing your story! I would suggest you try to keep yourself occupied, my hardest time is also straight after work. Think about how much time you have at your disposal to do stuff that makes you happy 
Stay strong and feel free to “ramble” on more 
I agree fubar! Now that you have this extra time that we all use to waste getting buzzed you should find hobbies to fill the void. I myself just bought a guitar and started to learn. I suck right now but it’s so helpful with occupying my mind. Find something you always wanted to do but couldn’t because you thought you didn’t have the time. Stay strong man
Hey. I’ve tried to quit many times. Last year i didn’t drink for 10 months. It started back slowly because i thought i had it under control. I was wrong. Im in church also which helps in so many ways. Also, last year i would go to the gym directly after work. Same plan this time. Hang in there.
Welcome @Bmcornell and thanks for sharing your story. You are in the right place. We are here to support you and each other. I’m 37 and what you have described is very similar to some of my experiences although for the past few years I’ve been a twice a week, red wine, get drunk until I pass out type of drunk. Like you, and many other people on this journey, I suffer from anxiety, depression and I have a hard time falling asleep unless I’m drunk. I recently started taking melatonin as well and it has also helped me fall asleep but I do sleep like 10 hours or more if I can and don’t work the next day. I think sleeping a lot in general is a withdrawal symptom for a lot of people that have recently quit. It shall pass and we will regain our energy, our minds, our bodies, happiness and so much more. I’m on Day 3 and the next few days will be a tough time for me. You’re not alone. Send us a message when you get off work and we will keep you company until your urge passes. Take care buddy.
Hey thanks i appreciate your time. We can sure work together.