Thx Doug! @Pridefulblossom Remi I’ve added you to the men’s porn / masturbation recovery thread. I’m sure you’ll find some familiar stories in there, and some help in recovery.
I also would encourage you to consider a program that may help with recovery. There is Porn Anonymous, and there are a wide range of groups for recovery from compulsive sexual behaviour:
You’re taking an important step and you will free yourself from this by learning as much as you can and working your recovery. You’re a good person and you deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self, free from porn.