# Just realized ,,
**URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/just-realized/134483
**Category:** Emotional Support
**Created:** [January 19, 2022, 6:52am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/just-realized/134483 "2022-01-19T06:52:08Z")
**Posts on this page:** 2
**Page:** 1
### Author:  [@alaskaraine](https://talkingsober.com/u/alaskaraine)
#### Post date: [January 19, 2022, 6:52am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/just-realized/134483/1 "2022-01-19T06:52:08Z")
i dont know if im really allowed to post this but i realized. i was trying to kms on sunday night but i coudlnt bc i couldnt even sit up. i havent told anyone that. im acraid to. the most ive said is “i fucked up” a d “i relapsed” but. i don’t think my eye will ever be the same. i dont think my body can handle it the way it used to. i still havent done anything since sunday night but . idk. i was waiting for the right time to tell my friend what happened but they’re having a worse time than i am.
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### Author:  [@Dan531](https://talkingsober.com/u/Dan531)
#### Post date: [January 19, 2022, 10:53am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/just-realized/134483/2 "2022-01-19T10:53:15Z")
Addiction thrives in secrecy, it wants us isolated all to itself. Reach out for help, do not suffer alone.