Looking for motivation

From 10 months i am trying to break serious addiction which last over 8 years and in 10 months i have relapsed over 40 times. This has caused me depression anxiety low self esteem you name it. My grades suffered from it and dont have a proper job after graduation. I feel like shit now.
i just wanted to speak my heart.

Stay strong bro

We hear you and there is space for your suffering here. We will stand by you!

Hi
New here and wanted to say hello

Just keep trying,don’t give up…I don’t even know how many relapses I had since I started trying 10months ago…you are not alone,addiction is a sneaky biatch)pardon my language)…Stay connected OK??8)

Now is the time to find some help, friend. Coming in here and saying what you’re thinking is a great start. You can beat addiction, but perhaps not alone. Great news is that you don’t have to go it alone. There are all of us here on the forum, and a whole bunch of groups that cover the various addictions - SMART Recovery, AA, NA, etc. Find one, and keep coming here to talk to all of us.