And, per divine timing-this morning I went to a “random” meditation meeting off the AA website.
I was still cleaning a section of my basement when it started and had my camera off. My default photo was a seaweed picture and the host immediately commented on it. She said it makes her think of fond memories and she hopes that place brought me as much joy as the place she remembered it from. I told her it was from Maine and she got excited as that was exactly where she had her fond memories held. I knew I was in the right place. I had two options on the website at the same time for a meditation meeting. I asked which one to go to and my HP delivered the answer-that was just perfect confirmation.
As someone new to the meeting, the host gave me her number in the chat. As the meeting went on, the reading was very pertinent to me. It was discussed how we have a daily reprieve and that a design for living is in that book. It works if we work our recovery.
This weekend I had a dream about my nephew handing me a bottle. I said no thanks, but it was there. I also found some old smoking stuff too while cleaning the basement. It kept coming up and got a little too close to home for comfort so I knew I needed a meeting today. I’m not immune to my old BS, it’s still in there but I get to stay in the solution instead today.
The meditation portion of the meeting arrived and i was able to feel the feelsies I hadn’t really let come to the surface today. I wasn’t planning on sharing after, but I did. Being honest about where I’m at is what I need to continue to do to stay on the right side of the fence.
It hit home for several people, but especially the host. After the meeting I stayed on and several of us chatted. We talked about loss, love and sobriety. My share and my photo brought a lot of emotions up about the host’s dad as they vacationed her together when she was young. She’d pop the seaweed with him. We chatted after the meeting and added each other on Facebook. There’s soooo many similarities between us, even half a country away. That’s the truly beautiful thing, we DON’T have to do this alone. Those who have walked similar paths really do get it and we’re in it together. I’m freaking grateful for this today. Because today I wasn’t truly alone when I’ve allowed myself to be in the past on these days.
And, tonight I actually created my own meditation per divine timing! It literally all fell together almost effortlessly. The microphone getting set up and adjusted within the settings, the successful recording of the script I wrote and updated today, the piecing it together with background tracks and making my adjustments to the collective sounds to blend them together, finding a video for the background and putting it all together into a video…ALL of this came together in under an hour.
None of today has been coincidental. I went to my first meditation meeting and ended up creating my own first meditation. Having the right energies arrive at the right time makes all the difference in the world. Tonight I’m ending my day still on the beam and for that I’m thankful.
In case you are in need of a short meditation, here’s what I created today with the help of my spiritual team. I’m grateful for them and I’m grateful for you all.
I love you guys, thanks for being here!