The absolute fear when opening each and every possible messaging app to check what I might have sent is horrific 
totally get you on that one
I understand I feel like I got like this when younger I’d be fun, loud, outgoing and maybe just act in a way that really wasn’t anything like me but people thought it was funny or overlooked it due to my age then. Still much preferred to a mean drunk although the hangovers and anxiety are hell regardless
I recognize this too! It’s the worst!! Just this one thing is already reason enough to stay sober.
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