@JasonFisher so true I have spent 5 years total trying to recover, went to a good rehab after 6 months using. Heard all about how to recover but had reservations, didn’t f’n listen.
In the end, these last 8 months, it’s been as easy as 1. Know I can’t use successfully ever again. 2. Accept and admit that I’m an addict. 3. Go to meetings. 4. Have a sponsor. 5. Post here every day.
But no I had to be closed-minded and fuck up relapsing for 5 years.
I relate 100%. I relapsed with a long time sober and had to stay out there trying to make drinking work for me way longer than I could have because I made coming back way harder than it is. Once I figured out that I’m my biggest obstacle its been easier to get out of my own way!
Yes I kept trying to use successfully despite the bloody awful evidence that it ruined my life!
Cunning baffling, powerful and deadly! We are the lucky ones!
HA! Tony did both this morning. Got sick then screamed for second breakfast!
