I love this. I need to work on letting things go before I sleep
This thread itâs nearing its end, Iâve been aware of it for months. One rainy day Iâll go through it all and write out all the ones I loved especially much. I have a section in my I diary for recovery quotes of all kinds, thatâs where they will go. I just wanted to say a massive THANK YOU to everyone who has contributed here! This is one of my top three favourite threads on here, maybe even the most. Iâm not on insta or wherever one gets these memes from and would not have known they were a thing! And theyâve brightened up so many of my days and given me a lot of joy! Thank you, mental health meme-ers and meme-eresses! 
This too is my favorite thread.
I also have been adding my favorites from this thread to my quote book and sharing them with those that I think need them as much as I do.
Thank you all who share here as well. You never know who you may help by posting here
Story of my old life! All the guys I used to date I always confused the pain for love.
Definitely not this way anymore because my fiancĂ© doesnât play those gamesâŠ
But about a month ago he didnât come home till 10pm and his phone was off. I had some weird number call me and I called back asking for my fiancĂ© and he said âyeah, he is at Prestigeâ and then hung up. I was like WTF and then my heart felt sooo in love with him, I am a psycho!
Haha turns out Prestige is a car dealership and he was buying a truck.
Anyway, I have issues.
UhâŠWho ya talking to? 
These last few weeks I have been sitting in some weird âstuffâ. I named it âTrustâ⊠I suddenly felt I couldnât trust the people in my homegroup, and here. I did a little work around it and itâs come right back to fear of intimacy. I have started a very intimate book study with some women in the program, this is something new to me. I have two sponsees now who I am building very intimate relationships with, also very new to me. My immediate reaction was to clam up and run, which I did until I noticed my behavior and adjusted it. I redirected my actions to something more recovery positive but still comfortable.
I shared about what I was experiencing with my sponsor, at a meeting and with one of my sponsees which has shed light on that darkness and it is slowly losing its power. That is the type of stuff that could send me back out though if I didnât take care of it and wasnât acting in a very self aware way. If I let things like that fester they get toxic very quickly and I end up losing myself.
So that is why I posted it, it rang very true to me when I read it. Maybe for you too?
Absolutely! I have come to realize that my habit of isolating (which I have always chalked up to depression) is actually, in large part, due to a fear of becoming close with people. If you donât get close, you canât get hurt. I havenât been dealing with that at all. I have done a lot of work with my relationship to and with myself.
Since my marriage (now nearly 15 years over), I havenât allowed myself to be close to anyone but my kids. I am sure I did them an incredible disservice by having done so. I never really processed that I have been cocooning as a protectionary measure. Sometimes I feel I will never be done unpacking the hurts that I have been âprotectingâ myself from.
I can relate to this feeling very well, it can feel overwhelming at times. I am just taking things slowly and as they come up; trying less brain exercises and more soul exercises. I have come to the conclusion this is life work, and there is no rush in creating a masterpiece. 
