I follow her on instagram. 
Iāve been debating over this decision for a while but Iāve made an appointment with my doctor to go on anti depressants. I see him on the 9th. I was on anti depressants about 8 years ago and it was awful. However, I was drinking and abusing them (taking more than i should have because they werenāt working). But Iāve been in a very dark place and I just need something to help me get through some of this. I donāt want to get up out of bed in the morning, it takes so much effort and energy for me to do anything, Iāve been falling behind on my school work which is 100% unlike me. Iām usually ahead on my work. Iām fuzzy headed and forgetful and I just donāt know what to do. Iāve been meditating, doing Qi Gong, and journalling. Iām going to start regular acupuncture treatments as well but Iām hoping the medication will help me short term and be a bonus to all my other tools.
That sounds rough Brooke, I am sorry you are struggling. Talking with your doctor about options is a good idea. I took generic Lexapro for a few months to help me thru a rough patch and it did help. Keep us posted.
I was on wellbutrin the last time and it worked for a bit but then i started getting really angry and aggressive and it made my depression worse (thats when I started taking more than prescribed because they werenāt working so in my head increasing the dose would helpā¦it didnāt lol). So, I want to try a different med and see how it works with me. Also, the fact that im drinking is a huge difference so I hope that it will be ok.
I have used Wellbutrin in the past with success. I know what you mean about the aggressive part, that is one of the reasons I stopped with the meds. I do think they can help short term sometimes just to reset us. Tho of course sometimes long term is necessary.
Proud of you Brooke for recognizing that you need a little extra help. Youāre right, medication is just one tool in the toolbox. It has helped me tremendously along with exercise and I also do Qi Gon too! Praying for you youāre amazing @Brookiemonster618 keep up the good work!!! 
Iām definitely looking for just a short term thing to get me through and out of this funk that Iām in. Iām glad the wellbutrin worked for you! I know several people on it who have had success. Iām not sure why it was different for me but Iām eager to see what my doctor recommends
thank you!! I hated doing Qi Gong when I first started because it was part of our curriculum for my acupuncture classes. But the reason I didnāt like it was because I āhad toā do it for requirements. Now im doing it on my own terms and im already noticing some shifts. Iām trying to do at least 20 minutes a day to cultivate my qi and help with the depression as well.
Lol I totally get the āhave toā thing Iām like that too sometimes hahaha. Youāre going to be just fine Brooke, youāre one of the strongest women Iāve ever known and I mean that with all my heart. Hang in there my friend and please definitely let me/everyone know how it goes. Much love and respect
Thank you so much Rob. That truly means a lot to me. I am so grateful to have your support along with others here. I will definitely keep you all updated as I go along. 
Btw who do you follow for QiGong? In school my teacher was taught by Damo Mitchell, his wife Roni Edlund, and Lee Holden. Iāve been follow Lee Holden 20 minute morning and evening QiGong on YouTube. I also have his DVD set which is great.
Lee Holden 
I like his DVD series as well my friend has it. Lee is the only one Iāve done so far I want to check out the other people you mentioned. I love it itās so peaceful and powerful. Have a great night Brooke youāre awesome 
I hear those voices all the time, the most frequent is āYouāll never be okayā.
I hate that. 
āthings will get done when they get doneā YES!
One of the most helpful things I learned in my first round of CBT was recognising when I was putting unnecessary pressure on myself and challenging the narrative I was creating around things.
So when I hadnāt done something that I said Iād do (as a volunteer), I would write out -
I havenāt done xyz and I was meant to do it yesterday
And then underneath write out -
If and when I get round to doing xyz for (whoever), they will be grateful.
Pretty much all the things I feel like I āneedā to do are really not things I need to do. I need shelter, food and sleep. The rest is all extra!