Balance well doggo
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Thatās where I am stuck with saying at the same time: fake until you make it. When we use our smiling muscles a loop is activated that ultimately makes us feeling better. 
This is kinda embarrassing but I need to let it out. Iād say for the last 6 months Iāve been watching Tarot readings on YouTube and itās progressively gotten worse for me. Over the last couple weeks itās progressed to watching them all day. I havenāt been doing any self care or had the desire to do so, Iāve stopped exercising and have been eating once a day. This all stems from my heartbreak over Faith and these Tarot readings have been giving me hope that sheāll come back to me. I knew Iāve been getting more and more addicted but didnāt realize what was really happening until tonight. I stumbled across a video that explained exactly how the Tarot readers suck people in and all have the same story line. I felt like a fool for what Iāve been doing and I know now that itās just been a coping mechanism for me to deal with the pain of what happened between she and I. Iām scared to face the rest of the pain I havenāt dealt with but Iām going to have too.
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Rob youāre dealing with so much right now. Mentally and emotionally it must be confusing and exhausting. Yes our addiction mind starts to look for a filler- something that will give you hope and comfort. Donāt be embarrassed and weāre here for you. Work through the emotions and talk it out with a trusted person or therapist. It sounds like youāve got the ability to see what is moving toward the negative in your life. Things will get better. Give it time and be gentle with yourself. Youāre going to be fine 
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I totally agree with Rebecca here Rob. Youāre recognising the problem and now you need to start to put things in motion to move away from that. You have been through so much my friend 
but things will get better, slowly and steadily you will get stronger. Iām sending all my love to you right now @Rockstar24777 be gentle with yourself please, you are a lovely fella with a massive heart. 
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Thank you @Ravikamor, @Blondie1x and @littlemisschatterbox I appreciate that. Yes, the reaching out for anything to try and ease the pain even for a moment is definitely what Iāve been doing. I will do my best to try and do something healthy instead today. Thank you all for being here for me 
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So true. So true
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Stealing thisā¦so very much agree
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My mental health is up and down cuz I got deep depression
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You know you didnāt have to steal you could have asked 
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Whereās the fun in that? 
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Good point
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