Montana. Sober Notes. Fly

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When I was drinking, I wanted to learn so much. I wanted to be apart of even more. To learn, to grow and to understand. Drinking always pulled me back. But, I said, well what if I move out to Montana? Okay! Get sober and learn some cool stuff along the way? Yeah! Thats a plan! I’ll run and go there, start anew, be in the mountains, and I wont have time to drink. Ill just be happy.

:rofl::rofl:

Oh, man, it got worse, and I learned nothing.

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But hey, I got sober… 3.5 years after moving out here.
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Changing your location of your body doesn’t magically get you sober.. maybe there is a few rare occurrenceses, but, don’t bet on it.

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Look, sobriety is worth it.

Remember when we drink, we are looking for a feeling of change instantly, to feel “better”, but usually its an escape.

A rough attempt at escaping at that.

How many things could I list that I was eacaping from? Oh man.. give me about 5 minutes. Ill give you about 100 answers. :rofl:

But, each of us is worth more than us trying to escape, trying to force things that wont happen, trying too…try.

Remember, sobriety isn’t what we can do now, its what we can learn, mend, grow and patiently enjoy. Real things are not built in 2 hours. Thats the drinking mind.

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When I was drinking, I wanted to learn a lot of things that no one taught me. My life really begins at understanding that I only learned how to survive and yet no understanding of thriving.

But, I really am proud of myself, for a few things in my sober journey.

Because, I wouldn’t have learned them, and even if I did in my drinking days. They wouldn’t have been enjoyable..unless there was a beer around.

I could only imagine the mess I would be, if i was still drinking.

Oh, I know, I would have nothing-nothing.

Fuck.

And, just not doing much else except, drinking.

Double fuck.

Either enjoy drinking, or enjoy the changes in the world, but yet, the enjoyment of drinking is oh so ever fleeting, eventually you’ll just be deeply dead inside.

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You might never fly fish, but there is something deep down you wanted to do, outside of drinking…outside of just being sober.

So, fkn go for it bud, adventure awaits.

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Caught a little brown trout, off to my celebrate recovery meeting at the church.

God is good.

Just truly enjoying the water. Been sitting here for a while.

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I have never been to Montana but reading this is inspiring me to go to Montana right now! I bet the air is so fresh and so crisp there. I’m happy to hear that it all worked out. Also happy to hear you caught a trout today. Looking forward to more photos and more expertise.

Yes! Sobriety is 100% a never ending journey of creating a life we don’t want to escape from, I think you found it.

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so very true - it has to be a desire from within. :pray:

LOL - Yeah - In sobriety we finally learn to face everything head on and no more escaping.

Super proud of you and all that you have done and are doing.

What a gorgeous view :heart: Thanks for sharing this post with us :hugs:

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Especially after all the rain, its perfect.

Non but love…

:raising_hands:t3:

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I just told someone from work that had questions about stopping… I told them eventually the jokes run out and then your just doing stupid things.

I’m happy I stopped drinking too

You had a good shear
Thank you

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@JazzyS

To answer on this, because oh man. :rofl::rofl::rofl:

Ight, so, Im just so amped for new stuff again.

Anyways, we got done hunting, and fishing.

At my CR there is a Rodeo guy, and we got to talking oh man, tonight was just one of those good we going to laugh and joke and just enjoy it..

So, we got to talking about Rodeo stuff and im learning and, i start just trolling, but in a good way. The Rodeo guy is my friend.

So its in good nature.

He brings up Bulldogging.

Im like I can do that, mind you, I have no idea what it is.

Anways, in 3 weeks I got an opportunity to bulldog a steer. I got 3 tries to win $800.

He knows, everyone knows, I cant do no rodeo stuff.. most i ever done was ride a horse, casually lmaoo
:rofl::rofl::rofl:

Tigger warning: Bulldoging a steer :warning:

https://youtube.com/shorts/dXIiK_qkE1Y?si=9yoDifde3FgzzzjE

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Well I had a feeling it was gonna be big but no way was unprepared for this :laughing:

Ok…just stop :rofl::rofl::rofl:. You one crazy ambitious man.

Take the three weeks to practice like hell. Please be safe :folded_hands:t4:… It looks hella scary.

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I dont even know how to practice that lmaoo

I just have to go for it.. lmaoo watch me some YouTube and get my heels right.

Ill be hanging with the Rodeo boys on a Sunday after Church.

:rofl:

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:rofl::rofl:

Awe jeez! Aight then…best of luck Bro. Hope you get some good tips on Sunday :folded_hands:t4::folded_hands:t4::folded_hands:t4:

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Nah, but my boy won a tandem rodeo event.

And, thats what started it all. He doesnt brag, very low-key, humbled man before God.

Then you got me.

“Fk yeah I can take down a steer.”

There is a woman that goes there Rodeo woman, stands before God as well.

And, she was like, “you could do bull fighting” my arrognat self, I laughed, and said "oh, all i gotta do is not get hit by a bull, i see"

We all laughed. She was like if you fight a bull and win, we will give you $500.

I swear my church stories, dont even sound like church half the time. :rofl::rofl:

:rofl::rofl:

I love how this story just went from do something, to yeah, imma go take down a steer. :rofl:

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Sounds so easy peasy :winking_face_with_tongue:

Love that the most! Great to see you making connections, having adventures and connecting with God :people_hugging:

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We were all laughing, i was trolling.

But, theyre going to set the local arena. I just gotta show up.

Take down this steer.

Hercules, Hercules.

:rofl::rofl:

I just dont wanna die lol, thats all i ask.

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No please…that’s not the mindset you go into this with.

Have fun and be safe…but do make sure you can continue to have many more fun adventures :hugs:

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Be safe is fly fishing, this, LMAOO.

Oh if there were Rodeo guys here. They would probably get a plane ticket to laugh there ass off.

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Thank you for sharing and your picture is beautiful!

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Your post speaks to me in that moving to Montana has been a big part of my sober journey as well. I wasn’t sober when I moved here in 2022, but my drinking had to get far worse until I realized I was sick and tired of my self destructive cycle.

Being surrounded by Montana’s sacred beauty has been my medicine and my sanctuary on my journey of recovery.

It seems to be doing the same for you! :black_heart:

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One of the greatest feelings in the world is when a person just knows.

Oh, traveling and running to different places. Trying to find that place to call home..becomes so tiring…

Never thought i’d call Montana home, i thought i was going to be a Vegas kid.. had opportunities to go there. But, I decided to go to Montana 8 years ago. It was literally Vegas or Montana at that time lol.

When you know you’re at home, when you know you’re sober.

Non makes a heart more full.

Glad you’re here, glad you found home too.

EDIT: Isn’t that a picture of Kootanai Falls?

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For me, there are a lot of things that “look fun”

the problem i’ve ran into in the past is

  • knowing i’m going to suck at it and will just give up

or

  • depression paralyzing me so that i don’t want to have to do anything extra

I admire your willingness to go out and try new stuff i think i’ll get there since im always trying to get better with my mental health

very nice pics too! my dad was from Billings so we visited there often in my childhood

would really like to go back - maybe even move there.

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I feel it, give it time.

Lol, i remember the first week or two of fly fishing was rough, tangled up, lost so many flies, fell in the water.. :rofl::rofl:

But, when you keep going in whatrver you’re trying to do.

You know that those times are the funniest parts.

Because eventually it wont happen again.

But, yeah depression and the mental blocks can crush anyone more than there worst enemy..

You will. If you’re willing, you will. Something inside of you will just push you so much to get after it. That you will be left with no choice, but to feel free in it.

If you decide to move back let me know.

It would be an interesting time to know that story.

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Yeah, time i definitely have. recovery isn’t a race, and it’s funny we’re talking about this because I’ve been learning that less is often more.

i feel that way when i’m at my job at JiffyLube. I’m working PT right now but boy, in another life I would probably like running my own JL.

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