“Doing the hard things is actually doing the more nuance work of listening to our body & create space to respond vs react.”
This is perfect isn’t it? I mean it takes into consideration more, the idea of living more in the moment, taking care of each next decision, and continuing to make sure that our environment and atmosphere. We put ourselves in, is sufficiently fertile enough to help us grow.
You mention the ‘perfect actions’. We judge ourselves massively eh? Trying to make up ‘quick step’ for the past, and how we feel about ourselves today? It has to be perfect, because we have wasted enough time. It has to be perfect because if its not, then we can find space to judge, and if you give me an inch to judge myself, I will take a mile to judge myself.
Can we please just accept, and not judge ourselves? Can we just ‘be’ and trust our intent. Paradoxically, I think it’s the trying too hard that makes us come undone. Like everything, it all comes down to balance eh? Trying in moderation. I could talk forever on this subject. I have ruminated and ruminated and made mistakes, and took valuable lessons from them, and then failed again because I tried too hard once again. Maybe concentrating too much on mistakes and learning. It tires you out eh? I have felt consumed by the past at times. But I MUST compose and control the chimp in me that wants to be free. He is a cheeky little chimp that can cause just as much unhappiness as when he used to help me drink. I have taught him some morals , values and beliefs but I need to keep an eye on this mischevious thing.
I think I am digressing. Pardon me. I can get lost in silly analogies. Ha
I love Rich Roll by the way. He inspired me to run.
I hear all of your frustrations and I relate with them all! When you start a project or any job, do you think that your subconcious is telling you that you don’t deserve the joy that comes from such a process. Of giving you joy? Of taking a step for good?
What would you do with your handwriting. Like journaling perhaps? Is there something you have always wanted to try? Sorry to sound condescending. I am just being inquisitive. I have sooo many things I wanna do, now that I am ‘capable’. Controlling myself and concentrating on one thing at a time, I think will help me. I never finish jobs.
A friend of mine asked me to make a music video for one of his songs, two years ago. I haven’t started it, and the deadline is end of June. This is my one and only focus in my any spare time, for the next two weeks. I am going to trial, only focusing on this and trying hard not to do that dreaded thing ‘think!’ (too much). Apparently, we only need to do 5% of the thinking that we do. I have just made that statistic up, but I think you get my idea.
I crave ‘flow’. Auto pilot. Stress is a killer man. We gotta fight it, simply.
Thank you to you, also, for sharing
Be well x