Thank you so much for your kind words, my dear friend. You’re absolutely right, my thoughts ain’t real. I’m just so depressed that I spent three days in the intensive care unit and now I’m at the psych ward. I just feel like a total failure, so messed up. But I’m gonna survive, never give up. Thanks again for your support!
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You’re not alone. I’m so grateful you’re still here. And getting the help you need to sort things out. I may only know you from this forum but I feel you that you are deep caring person. Please take care of yourself. You do matter. @MrMoustache
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Oh I feel this so much. Just keep on keeping on. The fact you’re actively aware makes such a difference. Doesn’t mean it’s any fun though. Big hugs!! You got this.
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Glad you are getting the help you need. Happy you reach out here.
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I feel this so much! I had been diagnosed BPD for years until I learned I have CPTSD, DID, amongst other super complex personality disorders. I go through bouts of feeling immensely hopeless. Just when I think life is looking up, my mental illnesses rear their ugly heads. But, everything is a matter of perspective. If DBT/CBT has taught me anything, it’s to challenge unhealthy thinking. And, it’s so important to have people remind you that you’re not broken, just built differently. You possess an amazing way of thinking and looking at life. When life seems hopeless, try to see it through your wonderful set of glasses instead of those of others. There’s only you in the world for a reason, and we need you—bipolar/BPD and all!
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Hey there…. Sending positivity your way. I too have experienced some thoughts that I would be better off dead lately. I do immediately realize that I need to change the direction of. that thought pattern. May you find what works for you and so glad you are here to share.
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Thank you @Von100 @StacyAnn @ICanAndWill @tailee17 for sharing your thoughts, those means a world to me to know that I’m not alone in this battle called life. Although we haven’t met in real life, you guys are my true friends who understands me and I understand you. We’re gonna survive this together, no matter what! Thanks again, luv ya!
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16 AF, 19 weed free
Another day here at the psych ward. They are not letting me out for a walk yet because their concern is I might hurt myself. And to be honest, I’m scared of that too. I’m such a mess right now, but I know things will get better as time goes by. I’m sad, depressed and confused and especially confused why I tried to take my own life. But I’m safe now and I can focus on getting better.
Have a great 24 everyone!
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This is the important thing. Grateful that you are being looked after. You’ll be able to get out and walk soon enough. Focus on you and self healing for now 
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Thank you for the support. I met a psychologist today and he helped me to see how black-and-white my thinking is. I’m feeling so desperate right now, life seems so pointless and meaningless. But some how I also feel slight hope, I can and will survive from this hellhole inside my head.
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Oh that’s beautiful and I’m grateful for this psychologist 
. Have a wonderful day my friend
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Thank you. Have a great day as well, my friend!
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17 AF, 20 weed free
Today marks my 20th day without weed. It’s s been a easy journey because I was sober for months before smoking couple of joints or so. But I’m determined not to smoke ever again. It’s a a cliche, but being sober is the best feeling ever.
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Hey congratulations on 20 days weed free!!! Great job 
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Thank you, my friend!
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Impressive work my friend… great determination and progress!!! Keep up the wonderful work 
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Thank you, Jasmine, for your constant support and love! You truly are my inspiration!
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You are most welcome friend. Thank you for your sweet words 
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It’s nice that program lets you have Internet access! In the dozens and dozens of facilities, in multiple States, I’ve never been allowed! #LowKeyJealous Although, it’s probably for the best. I tend to doom scroll.
One thing I tend to forget, even though I literally tattooed it onto myself so that I wouldn’t is: this too shall pass.
Thank you for sharing your crappy days with us. We take them, bless them, and give them back to you in hopes that they build you up enough to say, I can do this, and I will do this!
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Yeah, we can use freely mobile devices here at the ward. I read of your recent struggles, I truly hope you’re feeling better now! We’re in this together. I root for you, man!
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