I talked to my doctor and nurse and I was forced to come into the hospital because of severe psychosis on 27th October. So, my weed counter starts from that day. 50 days without alcohol, 7 days without weed. Yay!
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These are fantastic timers friend! Grateful that you are under care and have people looking out for you 
. Keep working your recovery and healing 
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Thank you! I’m so grateful that I have such a great care team, a doctor, a psych nurse and all my counselors. Now it’s up to me to stay sober and I will. Doctor warned me that because my psychosis was so severe, next one night lead to schizophrenia. So no thanks to substances for ever, I’m so super motivated to stay sober.
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Oh much love my friend. Very scary indeed. Grateful for that added motivation and know that sober is the only way 
Much strength and hugs as you keep walking this path 
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Thank you, Jasmine! I’m back at home and I’m feeling so strange because the psychosis started in here. I’m feeling sad and so lonely. But I know things will get easier as times go by. Now I just gotta survive this day and hit the pillow sober. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully better.
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Sending so much love and strength. I am sure it’s weird being home…can you call on someone so you aren’t alone or do something to the place to make it mure peaceful and feeling secure (if you know what I mean)?
Wishing you all the best..
Here for you friend
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Thank you! I’m listening music and try to just calm down. I’m feeling so sad and out of place, home doesn’t feel like a safe place but I think that is because I spent some time at the psych ward where I was safe. Now I’m feeling some flashes from my psychosis, what happened at my home. I try to get to bed early and start tomorrow a new day. Thanks again, my friend!
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Heading to bed early as a good plan.
I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself and listen to some happy vibes. I do hope that that helps
Just remember to reach out if things start to feel off in any way. Do not suffer in silence
Thinking of you and sending you love
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Thank you! I went to bed early and slept over 12 hrs. I just ate my morning oatmeal and my counselors gave me my meds. Soon I’m heading to the church for food aid because I lost my bank card and I don’t have any food before the new card arrives. I’m still feeling sad and like a loser without a purpose. I think I’m gonna talk about my feelings today with my counselor. Life just sucks at the moment but at least I’m sober and I don’t have any cravings. I just wish I could be happy and enjoy of life.
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Glad you are getting our and will be around other people. The isolation at home can also trigger these thoughts sometimes.
Much love my friend. You are not a loser. Smer don’t always have to have a defined plan for our journey. Doing amount best and living it sober is a huge thing that should not be taken lightly.
Right now just focus on healing. This will get you to a healthier mindset and place where you can make plans for your path.
I do wish you happiness too. I’m so sorry you are going through this phase. Just know that you are not alone
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Thank you so much for your comforting words! I’m so sad at the moment. And I’m really worried of my oldest son (21 years old) because he posts suicidal and suicide stuff in Instagram.
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. I am sorry that your son is dealing with these thoughts. Hoping he reaches out for some help
I can’t imagine the struggle that must be for a parent.
Keep working your recovery and healing friend. We have to remember that we can’t be of any good to others if we ourselves are struggling.
Much love to you… happy reggae vibes and positivity your way 
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Yes, you’re right. Healing and sobriety comes first. I can only support and pray for my son.
Glad you mentioned reggae because I’ve been listening to roots reggae today. Sending hugs to you!!
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10 days without weed, 53 without alcohol.
I’m still feeling like shit. My emotions are all over the place. I’m sad and anxious. I slept over 12 hrs again because I was so tired. I just had my breakfast and now I’m just lying in bed too tired to go for a walk. I’ll try to read Bible and Timothy Keller’'s book about praying but I find it so hard to focus. But I’m glad that I don’t have cravings. I know that as time goes by, I’m gonna feel better. After all, my smoking weed is still fresh and it affects my mind. And the severe psychosis is still on my mind. Oh well, enough rambling. I just try to survive another day and stay positive.
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Well done my friend… double digits 
. Sorry you are still in an emotionally charged place. Hope you can just rest and be kind to yourself. I know when fatigue is crippling I’ve had to samtay in bed for days to let my body do what it needs.
If you can’t read, then watch a comedy clip or movie or just do light stretches in bed. Stay connected here…read around the just for fun threads as they always helped me.
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Thank you for your wise words. I’m feeling better because I’ve been reading the Bible and listening to reggae. I’m still pretty scared because of the psychosis, but luckily I have friends and counselors who I can talk to. And I’m meeting a priest next Wednesday to discuss about my situation and my mental health.
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Get up and go for a walk… I too laid in bed for hours this morning just not wanting to start my day. Let’s walk together.
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Oh yes, tomorrow I’ll go for a walk. I’m starting to practice yoga soon and I’ll go to check where the yoga studio is. It’s close, only 20 min walk away. I’m starting yoga again because it’s so good for my mental and physical health.
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Yoga would be so good for you….
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