To anyone reading this, my name is Mattnew. Im an individual who struggles with a pornography addiction. I’ve been addicted to pornography for 12 years, and its taken a toll on my life. Im someone on a constant merry-go-round of sobriety to relapse continuously, and Im fed up with it.
Ive used this addiction to hide away from reality, and I can’t allow mysellf to do that anymore. Technology is my weaknesses, which is why Im barely on here. Despite my persistance, Ive continued to screw up. Mainly because I dont put enough protective measures on my phone. Im going to establish a pornography blocker on my phone including a time limit app to help break away from my compulsion to search through it.
I use this addiction as a way to not deal with my responsibilities, including my feelings and fears. Present life circumstances with thoughts of my past and future.
Now someone whose in his 20’s, I realize how serious I have to take this situation Im in to change my circumstance around. Twelve yesra have been ruined by this compulsion, and Ive done enough progress to realize where I need to cut it off. The people I see on here show me that success is possible, and I plan on achieving that.
This message is ment not to explain myself briefly, but a way to create leverage on myself.
My goal is to go 3-4 months clean. 90 to 100 days addiction free, and accountability is a must to help further establish that. Feel free to keep me accountable for those wanting to change their situation around too in this issue.
My belief is that anyone can change their circumstance, and that success belongs to those who search it out and apply themselves each day.
Thanks for reading, and any advice and support is needed.
I’m 21 days porn free. Take things one day at a time and don’t limit Yourself to couple months only.
Sobriety is a constant state of being
What I can tell, is that You need a lifestyle filled with self discipline and healthy, productive activities.
Are You ready for this change and are You willing to step out of Your comfort zone?
I hear you. My life outside of TS is very busy. Running a small business, married with 5 small boys, and keeping them in sports and stuff. We are incredibly busy. I have to take time to focus on my sobriety each day. If not then I’ll ignore the fact that I’m an addict and then when I have a small window of a chance, my brain will immediately push me toward relapse.
Yes on both accounts. Ive been doing both continuosly for the last 6+ months and Ive seen the progress. Whats hard is not turning back out of how much works needed to do on yourself, but Im willing.
Thanks Kevin. Just mentioning the word months really makes it a push to take my life much more honestly than before. Your doing great yourself by the way. Im ahppy you’ve passed 70 days
You’ve got the potential. The key is to find reasons why youre doing this, and to make reasons why you hate pornograohy and masturbation. Words like ‘hate’, ‘disquist’ and ‘nauseate’ can be used in reasons written off to stimulate your mind what you truley feel about those addiction s and make it less likely to engage in them again.
Same. Any trigger without a written precaution for me to read and its game over for me. Tackle this with porn block accountabilities and app blocks for phone devices helps tremendously
