My last try at sobriety was really hard the first week or so, but then it was smooth sailing to day 133. On day 133, I decided I was cured and I could handle it. Which, I did…for about two weeks then I was back to my old ways. And I stuck to em for about 4 months. I’m back on day 12, and it’s…”easy” again. I’m not struggling with thoughts of drinking, not having any cravings really. Buuuuut- I’m worried my ego is just setting me up for failure again. It’s going so well, that I’m starting to get anxious that I’ll just slip up because I think, or I’ll convince myself I’m not an alcoholic or something.
I swing very quickly between “I’m an alcoholic, I can’t drink,” and “actually if I was an alcoholic would this be feeling so easy right now?” I got a smart brain and a dumb brain, obviously lol
Well, I would say that you need to constantly remind yourself, daily, why you can’t drink.
I visited this site as often as I could in the early days, no matter how “easy” I felt it was.
That voice is very persistent and can get us turned around before we know it.
Have you thought about a program of some sort?
I notice you’ve been here 10 days but only one hour read time.
My suggestion would be to have a good read around. Use the magnifying glass above to search any questions you may have.
All the advice you need is here.
Hopefully you have learnt that it is a bit more than just stopping drinking.
The checking in daily thread helps to stay connected to fellow drunks
Will do!! I’m still trying to figure out how to navigate the topics and threads on here lol but I will do some more exploring