I would like to preface this by saying I don’t really know a lot but I would like to share my opinion through my experience.
I am writing this to inform you that identifying and working through your first bottom in sobriety is an essential part to overall recovery.
Mine hit exactly at my 90 day mark. I was depressed the night before, had using dreams the whole night. When I awoke it was with a jolt and I felt I had the weight of an elephant on my chest. I couldn’t get the thoughts to use out of my head. Day 95 I ended up having to go to a psych ward for processing suicide intensely. Luckily I’ve been in treatment for my whole 5 months and when it started to overwhelm my brain I told someone.
I went back to treatment 5 days later and noticed a difference, a new feeling for me. Gratitude.
As soon as that set in I realized all I need to do is discuss my issues, bouncing around to multiple people, father their input, take in what may work or I see beneficial and then apply it. I can honestly say I’m not the happiest I’ve ever been in my life but I’ve been the most content with my position in this life