My first relapse 😭

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Hii, I originally joined this app, and made my first post on march 10th, and I lasted a little over 10 full days or so.

I felt instantly disappointed in myself and drank a few nights the past week because “I already relapsed, so whatever”.

It went so well, but then I convinced myself that I deserved a “treat” for handing in a solo uni project that was quite stressful, so I bought wine.

So I wanna try again now, but I want to also try not be so hard on myself. It made the relapse worse than it would be if I didnt feel so bummed out…

Anyone else relate to this? :sob:

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I had so many at the beginning of my journey. But you can do this! You are here and trying! It really is just keeping it simple. Don’t worry about tomorrow or forever. just take care of today. Read around here, there is a lot of help and support. I wish you the best on your journey.

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Maybe try ameeting they helped me stay sober with no relapses wish you well

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I’ve relapsed many time before I finally gave up, @Jun.

I don’t know of many people who have gotten right the first time around, so just don’t give up and try again. Tell yourself that if you fail again, you’ll keep trying until you figure it out.

It’s a lot easier with support and accountability from other people in recovery at meetings, give that a shot my friend. There is a solution and if I can find it so can you.

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I can relate. I had 17 relapses (slips) last month, and 7 in March. I tracked it all with this app. I’m on day 8 AF now. I went to a meeting last night, my friend got her 6 months chip. We talked about my slips on the way to the meeting, the book she picked up had a corner folded and she opened to the page, this was the reading:

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This is BRILLIANT!!! It’s true!

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It’s from The Book of Bill. I need to get a copy of it because the readings are so good, and the focus of the Sunday AA group I sometimes go to.

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Speaking just for myself…I would be hard on myself if I relapsed today. Why? Relapse would be a choice I made for myself. However, I would also look at why I made that choice, look at my program of recovery and figure out what didnt work.

For me a relapse will lead me to my death.

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This isn’t my first attempt at getting sober. And as much as I want it to be my last attempt, I have to be realistic, there is a possibility I could relapse.

So please don’t be too hard on yourself.

10 days is a huge effort. You’ve got this and starting over isn’t defeat.

Good Luck.

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are you doing okay @Jun

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I spent 2 years battling, had many 5 to 10 day periods of sobriety. Often had the same mindset of starting over is not defeat. It does make it easier to live with your self when you fall, however it makes that very fall all the more likely. I don’t how far into addiction you are however if you really want to have sobriety you will have to eventually get to point where you can not rationalize it with your self. You mind has to reach the point where you understand there is no place for alcohol or what ever your substance is in your life. We are different and that is ok, but we can not stop if we start, therefore we can not start.

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